Tears In The Night…

Another restless night…

22 June – Lonely Star

“I was tired and I felt a bit dizzy, it had been a busy day so I went to bed at quarter past 00:00 or so. I managed to sleep shortly, everything was silent. All went well. Suddently I woke up in the night then I looked at my mobile’s clock, it was half past 3 in the morning. I stood up on the edge of the bed and as usual I keep the window opened. A softly wind entered my room. It’s the same one that visited me every night in the last days. I think in a way he’s my friend of sorrow. I was glad to have him again playing in my hair and skin. I looked through the window at the dark sky. It’s emptyness fascinates me and let my mind flow freely. Suddently I’ve spotted a really bright light on the sky. It looked quite familiar. I saw it also the last couple of nights before. It was a shiny star. It felt like it was gazing at me from far away but it was a pleasant feeling. I stood up and went closer to the window. It made me really curious. I tooked the curtains aside so I can watch it better. The wind was still around me, playing like a little puppy that wants some attention. All that atmosphere tooked my mind away for some minutes. Ofcourse, to her. Allways. The one and only person I most desire for in my whole life. The only one who’s whispers and breaths are softer than my friend the wind, and who’s eyes shine brighter than that lonely star I was starring at with a face full of admiration. Then the wind started to swing faster around me which woke me up from that mirrage i was merged in with my thoughts. I felt something on my cheeks and my eyes were wet. I touched my face and realised I had tears in my eyes. Why was I crying ? I tried to wipe them out but new tears were borning out from my eyes. I tried to wipe them several times but it was hopeless. Then I understood I needed to cry and I didn’t even wanted to know why so I didn’t bothered to find a reson. I looked again at that lovely star. I felt like a solitary wolf howling in the darkness at that star that completely hypnotized me. It felt like some instants passed then I looked at the clock again and it was allready past 4:30 am. I went to the bathroom and turned on the light. I looked in the mirror at myself, the tears were almost dry. I looked myself in the eyes, they were small dark blue and ice cold looking. They looked so empty… I washed my face and went back in my room. I looked at my bed. It seemed so big and empty that even scared me. I sat on the edge and looked once again through the window at the sky. The beautiful bright star was gone, also the friendly wind. Then I tooked my pillow and hugging it tight I shrinked at the edge of the bed and tried to sleep. It was allready morning…”

©AXOMME on 22-06-2009.