Tragedies…

23 June – Fear

Today has been a horrible day. I could have lost my dad forever. He has been caught in a car accident. He was drivinf on the highway on his way to work in the morning. He was behind another car. It happend too fast. The one in front of him must’ve slept at the steeringwheel because he suddently went in the concrete wall between the both sideways and from there the car jumped in front of my dad’s car. The road had several ways and dad was in the middle one, he couldn’t head left as he would hit that guy even worse than it happend and if he went right he would hit anotherone which was passing next to him so all he could was to slowly hit the guy in front of him. That guy’s car from the wall ended practically horizontal in front of my dad’s car so he slightly turned a bit right and hitted the rear side of that guy’s car. The airbags popped out thankfully dad is ok only a couple of bruises. That dude was a bit wors. The ambulance and cops came and they did all the papers and crap. Dad was a bit late to work but it doesn’t matter. His bosses understood it and they’re glad he’s fine. The car has sufferd a bit though. The left side is a mess. They picked it up and tooked to the local deposit or something and all the paperworks and ensurances will take around one month and then also the fixing a lot more so we’ll probably won’t see the car again in some months. Dad’s really sad because for him the car is like another member of the family and I understand him. But I’m glad that he’s ok though I’m sill shaking a bit.

I’m also concerned about her and her family. Her mother has been recently operated and she has been crying a lot lately. I know how she might feel. Wished I was there to hold her in my arms and calm her down. Her mom went out of the operation quite well but she’s in pain after it now. She hates to see her mom feeling that pain and I understand her. I’m also worried a lot about her mom. Might sound weird but even tho I’ve never met her parents I really feel like they’re my own. I really care a lot about them. I’d love to meet them some day and thank them so much for the incredible and beautiful daughter they have…but I guess it might never happen…
I’ve also talked with her today, we have a lot of feelings and needs in common but still it seems we can’t be one for the other…don’t know why. *sigh* At least now she know that I trully love her…I think…or at least I hope she does know. I don’t know anymore what to do or if I should do something. I feel quite hopeless. She told me life is not perfect. I don’t want it to be perfect I just want it to be at least a normal life because it’s not even normal. It feels like everything is going from bad to worst.

I don’t think i can sleep tonight. Hope my friends, the wind and the star will keep me company until the sunrise.

©AXOMME on 23-06-2009.