From my heart

24 June – Pure Love

It’s 23:21 and I’m sitting in front of my laptop. MSN is open. I’m chatting with her. It’s such a weird feeling knowing that she’s on the other side of the screen and it feels so close that I can almost touch her but yet she’s so far… We’ve got closer lately wich makes me really happy but something is still missing and it will probably miss until she will understand that I love her with all my heart. I never ever felt anything like this for enyone before. She means so much for me. In fact she means everything for me. I think I’ve tryed in all ways to explain her what I feel and that I really mean it but I guess she’ll only believe it in real life… Wished I was close to her so she can feel how I am in real life but unfortunatelly I’m not. But I do really love her. It wasn’t needed for me to know her in real life to love her. She’s definately someone I can fall in love with blindly. I can’t even explain what she has that captured my heart and I don’t even try to find a reason, I don’t care for reasons because I’ve comepletely given myself for her. She’s just perfect for me, nobody and nothing else matters for me now except her. She’s more than just someone I love, she’s my inspiration, she’s the only one that makes me feel a complete person, she’s my heaven…I can never love someone else than her. I don’t mind what people are saying or will say, that’s not my concern. What matters for me is what does she thinks of us and hope she will manage to let me in her heart one day. I want nothing else but to love her, be always by her side, take care one of the other, be together for in the good and bad moments. We don’t have to be lonely. We both know what we want and we both want the same thing…someone to love. And I know she’s the one I want to love. Her past made her grow a wall around her heart and not to easily trust in guys anymore but I only want her to believe in me that I’ll never fail her or make her sad. I know they allready told her such words but I know that I really do what I say. I’m not just a talker. I always keep my words because what I say comes from my heart. I allways speak with my heart and I never lie. I want so badly to show her that I trully mean what I say. If she would be here with me now I’d hold her next to me and whisper to her lips how much I love her, look in her eyes and understand her feelings, play with my hand in her hair while I smell the fragrance of her skin, hug her and stay next to her until the sunrise… Again I have tears in my eyes, I promised myself I’ll stay strong for her but the love I feel for her is harder than anything and I can’t hold my tears. I don’t care what everyone can think of me, yes I am a guy,  but boys also can cry… I’m not that strong and in fact I don’t want to. I don’t know if I can make her happy, all I can promise her is loyalty, sincerity, confidence, trust, support, love and a beautiful life next to me. I don’t even need more. I love you baby !   T_T

©AXOMME on 24-06-2009.